19th MAY - Olivia 18 days old

A blink of eyes is already 18 days since I gave birth to Olivia. Confinement lady had given Olivia sun bathing about 5 times and she's finally satisfied that baby's jaundice is almost cleared. I'm actually quite worried after all the sun bathing, baby might end up having dark skin :(

Right now Olivia can drink up to 3oz every feed. Not sure if its too much or not but when she doesn't get enough, she will cry and ask for more. I guess she knows very well how much she want and how much she can drink. Lucky now that my milk supply is still enough for her. I'm not sure why but it has been a week and my milk production is only 3oz no matter if I pump after 3hours or even 4 hours. I'm not motivated enough to carry on waking every 2 hours and pumping mid night if I don't see my milk amount increasing :(

I've started taking fenugreek capsules since last Thursday (4 days). Some say it would take a week or maybe 2weeks before seeing the results. I hope I can see results of milk increasing soon otherwise I'm really not sure if I can carry on the breast feeding journey.

But I'm lucky that at the earlier days when Olivia is only drinking 1-2oz, I've manage to keep up to 7 bottles of 5oz BM in the freezer :D I'm proud if myself for this. Hehehe. 

I'm also glad that Isabelle has been accepting baby Olivia very well. No jealousy at the moment. She loves baby very much and she always want to kiss and sayang baby. Am so happy to see that. 

Olivia's arrival on 2nd May

It was when doc open up and want to take baby out from my abdomen, he then realize something was not right. There was a smell. Baby has poop inside the sac and has swallowed the maconium. The whole reason why the sign of contraction is because baby had infection. She has to be out otherwise it would be life threatening for her. When she was out, I could her sound of suction and I think pead was trying to clean her up and suck out all the dirty stuff in her lungs.

Baby was brought to ICU & was in incubator with oxygen support. She was in ICU for 2 nights. During these 2 nights, I was not allow to direct latch to feed baby so there was no choice but had to give her formula. I am quite surprise that this time round, I could really be very determine to breastfeed baby so I pump every 2 hours. Even tho I couldn't get much but at least I could see the colostrum. 

Time of birth : 11:59am

After 2 nights at ICU, baby was brought up to the nursery. She was doing quite well and could breath without the oxygen support. Baby had to stay in hospital longer as she was on antibiotic for 5 days. After that, she had jaundice and had high white blood cell count so again had to stay another few days in hospital. At home, I was very hardworking pumping every 3 hours and am so glad my milk kick in very soon on 3rd day. I'm glad I've got quite consistent supply now. I can get 2-3oz every pump and the double pump really saves so much time. 

In total, baby stayed hospital for 8 nights and the bill came up to rm3.4k

Mommy's bill was around rm8k+ 

1st May - The Emergency

The pain started the midnight of the 1st of May 2013. I felt some slight pain at first but then the pain went on and it got more intense. The pain comes every 10 mins and last for 30 secs every time. This was the beginning of the contraction pain.

By morning, I couldn't hold the pain any longer so I quickly got myself changed and got hubby to bring me to hospital emergency. Nurses called my gynea to come in as it was a public holiday that day. Doc says I'm having a minor contraction. Baby is only 34 weeks. Why contraction so soon? Doc thinks I might have infection in me that cause my body to react as such. I was told my cervix has dilated 1cm. We have to stop the dilation. I was given pills to stop the cervix opening further, but the pills was not the pain killer so the pain still goes on every 10min.

I was lying on the bed in the labour room overnight with the pain went on and on. So basically I was in pain for 30 hours of contraction pain. Though I wasn't going thru the intense contraction pain but it was bad enough to endure the pain for so many hours. I've waited and waited and the next morning came. I was so glad to see my doc checking on me. He asked is I'm felling ok. Feeling OK? How can I be when the pain went on the whole night. I asked if I should just deliver my baby that same day 2nd May. Doc was a little reluctant as he is worried that baby's lung is not strong enough yet. He wanted for me to try to hold for another week or two so at least baby is 35 or 36 weeks old, But I couldn't wait. So I decided to go for csec to get my baby out

It was around 9am plus when I made the decision. 15mins later doc walked in with a piece of paper for my signature agreeing to the csec and he says the operation will start at 11am. I didn't even had time to discuss with my hubby and I had to quickly calls him around 10am ish to tell him bat the decision and that I'm going into labour at 11am.

Hubby quickly rush to drop Isabelle off to playhouse and joined me at the hospital. Everything happened so fast!

Baby finally arrived at 11:19am : 2nd May 2013